Today, during Grayson’s nap, I was thinking of how different my life is now as a parent. Before I became a mom, I thought I pretty much knew what parenthood was about – I knew what to expect, how it would be…….but there are some things I never knew, before Grayson came along.
I never knew I could care so little about my appearance, yet care so much about the sugar content of my baby’s juice.
I never knew every contribution I had to make to a conversation would begin with “Today, on Sesame Street….”
I never knew I would find peanut butter behind my ear (especially when we haven’t eaten anything with peanut butter on it for DAYS)
I never knew I could be so delighted to get so many slobbery, sticky kisses.
I never knew I would regularly call dogs “woofs”, cats “meows”, and chickens “ba-gawks”.
I never knew I could resort to acting like a complete idiot in public just to get a smile/laugh out of my child.
I never knew an entire room full of adults could be endlessly entertained by one small child.
I never knew I could fantasize so ardently about SLEEP.
I never knew I would count sleeping til 8 am as “sleeping in”.
I never knew I would peek in on my sleeping child numerous times a night just because I missed him.
I never knew a one-year-old could contain SO much energy inside such a small body.
I never knew I would do so much wrestling (trying to change a diaper, trying to trim fingernails, trying to get the hammer, screwdriver, etc, out of his hands……etc. etc. etc.)
I never knew I could feel joy to the point of doing a touch-down dance just by getting your child to FINALLY eat something you place in front of him – after 17 different tries (seriously, I counted last night)
I never knew I would love every single second of it all.
I never knew I could love a person so infinitely – and that love would continue to grow exponentially every single day.
I love you, Grayson! Thanks for teaching me so much, buddy! :)